The last 2 weeks I have been thinking alot about faith, because I suddenly felt changes in my mindset. Maybe my mindset have been changing for a while now, due to things that are happening and has happend in my life. It has resulted in an on-going process of self-realization, but just now these last 2 weeks have made me realize that this process has released some positive energy in and around me.
When I’ve struggled with problems in life before, big or small, I’ve always thought to myself «Why am I going through this? Why is God letting me go through this? Did I do something wrong to deserve this? »
I’ve never understood the reason of a struggle until I would reach the end of the phase and see the bigger picture from a birds eyeview. I would then realise why it all happend and how the struggles resulted in positive things for example good lessons. Even though I would realise that it all happened for a reason, I never kept the lesson of having faith whole-heartedly.
I would go through the same doubtfullness, “the why”, every time a new struggle came crashing into my life. Even if I knew that everything happens for a reason, my mind would still want to know why. It was difficult for me to accept the situation that I had to have faith that everything happens for a reason, but that I couldn’t be wise enough to see the reason yet.
It was a battle between the heart and mind and usually my mind speaks louder than my heart. My mind doubted everything even though my heart knew somewhere deep down that the outcome would be good.
The last 2 weeks I’ve been going through some stuff which would normally make me feel very doubtful, down and depressed. “The Why” would have approached my mind and made me feel totally paralyzed and hopeless, but instead my mind and heart responded positively to “The Why”. The immediate respons was “I know something good is going to happen now.. this is all happening for a good reason”.
Thinking about it I feel like my mind truly has accepted that I cannot see the bigger picture, but that I have to trust that this is not happening to harm me and that the outcome will make me happy. The idea that life has something better in store for me.
I would say my heart spoke louder than my mind this time, which resulted in me developing another level of faith in the greater good, true faith that everything happens for a reason. It is the idea that no matter how good or how painful the things you go through are, they teach us something, something that will reveal itself to us at some point. There may be very unpleasant lessons but they are lessons nonetheless.
Situations where you yourself are the one that’ve made mistakes and created struggles are the worst, because you fill yourself with remorse and regret that you could have changed it. Your mind will tell you that you could have avoided it and fill you with nothing but hatred towards yourself. In a situation like this you have no other choice than have faith that it is happening for a reason and would have happened no matter what.
If we always remind ourselves that things happen for a reason and everything will work out fine in the end, our respond to the bad things will change and we will feel more relaxed and at peace. In the end it will define the quality of life.
“Someday, everything will make perfect sense. So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears, be strong and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason.”
– John Mayer
You can survive anything as long as you decide to hang on to the faith that everything happens for a reason. It may be difficult and you may not be sure of the reason or what the future holds for you but it might be and can be great!
Take a step back and think about it, maybe there is a reason that you ended up reading my post!